Tuesday, June 16, 2009
confused.. 9:32 PM
I am confused. I don't know what to do. Due to this, I am suffering. I have mixed feelings about this. Will everything be the same again? What is the same again that I want? I am not sure myself. I will lose myself this way, definitely.
Unable to return to myself? That is a risk that I have to take. If it all fails... the rhapsody will come to an end.
About what? It is a secret. I am not gonna say it. Hopefully time will help me to recover.
This is the last week of my school holidays.
Which inevitably shows that the deadline of the GMP report is closing in.
Rushing now, wishing hard it will end soon.
Concentrating has never been one of my strengths and things happening around me is not helping me with it.
Always giving a happy look,
trying to bring laughter to my friends,
hiding the painfulness that is within.
Who do I turn to when I am down?
Who do I go to when I need to let out my true emotions?
Who would give me that listening ear of theirs and let me talk about my troubles?
I just want to find that somebody.
-XJ.