It's just not fair. It's not fair. It's not fair. It'll never be.

Everything was going on fine for me. Since months ago. Why? Why? Why did that dumb finger of mine have to click on that link. Why?

That feeling that I lost is back again. It's hitting me harder than ever. I hate it. Absolute HATE it. Get away! This feeling of sourness. Jealousy? I think so? It seems like I was never alright to being with. I was never back to myself. I was just covering up, with my act.

The smiles that I had on my face. Were those real? I don't know. The laughs that I had, were they genuine? No idea either. Maybe they're part of my natural response. This is happening along with my MP. Great. Just great. Made things so much better.

People warned me this would happen. They warned me so long ago. I understand it would eventually happen. I KNOW it will definitely happen. But why is it affecting me so much now. I had foreseen that this would happen. So why? Somebody give me the answer so that I can cure myself.

I wish I could have just gone to sleep, and when I wake up, everything is just a dream. A wrenching experience that I had faced. Horrible indeed, but at least it was just a dream. It is not real. Yes wish. Wishes are never meant to be granted.

Burying myself in work is what I shall do. Maybe work would make me feel numbness and this feeling would just go away. As Quickly As Possible.


Tag replies:


-Liyana: Linked.


-sherman: It's alright.


-Jessie: Linked.


-Daniel: Okay.



-XJ.
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